I feel extremely brittle today. As I hear the world bustle about, business as usual, I feel as isolated as ever. It used to be 'go out and slap on a smile, no one will know and maybe you'll at least brighten someone else's day.' Not as easy as of late.
It seems my ears are a little more sensitive today; maybe I'm just more appreciative than I used to be of what's around me. Maybe I just like the sound of shoes and paws on the wet ground just after the snow has melted.
I've been quiet a long time and lately I've fallen into a slump. I just let the world happen around me instead of seeking my own changes. Having no job doesn't help the situation; it really takes the wind out of your sails. And that's only one aspect. But no matter what good old depression is there with open arms, despite my reluctance to accept it.
Though I know life isn't all bad and I know there are people in my life who care, there is still plenty to worry about, both superficial and not. Maybe, hopefully, something good will come my way soon to help my out of this...whatever this is.
And to think, all of these thoughts could occurr while hanging wash...
